Originally Posted by
VigilanceNow 
How do you all deal with things following you around that you feel are impossible to atone for? Some things I don't even remember... Nor do I want to.
Other than not drinking, you do the only thing that is available to you and that is to learn and to practise* great compassion and forgiveness toward yourself.
In other words, you learn to love yourself. You are worth it, you're definitely worth it.
*It won't come naturally, that's why you have to practise. :-)