Dear Onestep,
I cried reading your journey. All moms are different as all children in recovery are. My issues were enabling my daughters. I wanted this disease out of their lives, that didn't happen, sadly.
I pushed and begged and pleaded for years to help them, but they just couldn't hear their mommas cries. I caused more damaged by trying to "fix" them. I had to wait for that day when the younger one got sick of being sick. And when that happened, everyone had already deserted her, except me. That was last November. She is now sober, has a secure recovery plan and seems happy. She was ready.
OneStep...you are ready...many of us mommas "wish", or "pray" our children had the courage that you do!
You give us HOPE, THAT RECOVERY CAN HAPPEN!
We will gladly and willingly support you in your journey, we have hope and love for you! Here's about a million HUGS from us mommas to you, our newly "adopted" daughter in recovery.
PM any of us, we are here for you
TF