I completely understand what you mean about wanting to keep it private; it's not an easy thing to discuss and many people don't understand. I don't know about your circumstances, but for me I thought I was hiding it for years, but everyone close to me knew. Sometimes I would even meet people just so I had someone to drink with on the sly, but my closest friends knew. I'm sure people would be very supportive of your decision to give it up!! Money may always be a trigger for you - we have to get creative to not slip up. Give AA a try! You'd probably be pleasantly surprised
