Hi, thanks so much. I have been having a panick attack and just lost it, I'm sorry I just went off here, begging. I just freaked out for a bit.. Got sick, and was gone for a few minutes,,,, being sick, and it seemd to calm me down some. Ohhhh, this anxiety, it's so tough to live with.. I can manage, I will manage, I am managing, even if it didn't sound like it.. Sorry.
But then, maybe it's ok for someone new coming that maybe has the same type of problems, to see that I have been around for a while, and it happens.. They are not alone, just like I am not alone, I hope.. That's why I put that under my name, we used to say that alot on NA, as a matter of fact, one of my meetings was called your never alone, I really liked that meeting, it was just really far away, in the treatment center I attended.. I went oh maybe 10 times outside of being in the detox/treatment center ( and I was in that center a handful of times so I went to quite a few meetings then ) I always liked it because of the fact that it was in a treatment center, and it was nice to always have newcomers, new stories, seeing people really seeing hope for the first time in a loooong time... But like I said, just to ar away..
I know this is not the NA forum, and I don't attend anymore, I just kinda got off on that subject, because I like the saying, you're never alone, such a great statement isn't it?? I think it fits SR quite well, someone is ALWAYS here, look I was suffering ( really suffering!!) in the middle iof the night, and up pops "want" to help me...
Thank you so much, just for saying something to me, shows you care..
As you see I am babbling, because I am a bit anxious right now, although it's alot better than it was..
I love Sr, you all have been so good to me.. Thank you for that. It's just so difficult to deal with this anxiety..
I would like to get up and go to church in the am, not sure though, kinda late, and I am a bit wired... Hopefully, I could use it right now.....
Want, about the newcomer, I would tell him/her, one minute at a time, go to meetings, and USE those phone numbers and try out SR, as I find SR helps me so much..
It's always one minute at a time in the beginning, and be real good to yourself, alllow the feelings to flow, and understand that they are going to, that's really important for new people to understand, because THEY FLOW, the TEARS, the ANGER, everyhting, it seems you just begin to FEEL, everything,a nd it can be a bit overwhelming at times, but it's good to just take it all in, and be good to yourself, just let it happen.. I feel really sorry for people who just try to stop, with no SR, no AA/NA, no nothing, just stopping on their own, no support, I don't know really if one could survive that way, because it's tough to understand all those feelings in the beginning,, if no one tells you that it's because we numb all that for so long that all of a sudden there they are, and what?? How is one supposed to handle that, if you don;t have any idea whats going on???? Maybe they don't, maybe they just relapse, until someone shows them the way to something??? I guess I just believe that a person HAS to have a program of help, and support, doesn't really matter which one, just so they have one..
Well, thanks again, and sorry all, for flipping out like that.. I am grateful want that you took the time out, and showed me you cared by typing me,,
I love ya,
Becky