I hope so Dee - last 18 months I went from bad to worse,Christmas Day was the trigger when it all went wrong - every morning after that I made the promise to quit but it just got out of hand again and a LOT worse
Catalyst this time was my sister - said I always looked tanned ..I knew why..I snapped a selfie of myself and could plainly see I am killing myself , look terrible
I think I understand now that this is it - I can't drink again ..ever ..I'm not going through it any more,for me most importantly but for my wife and children ..I'm not being that drunk husband and father
I buried my father this year and miss him terribly - He was a saint and died of old age,I can't put my kids through my self destruction and end up dead
I wanna be a saint like my dad !!