HG.....your emotions are perfectly normal, at this point in time....
Grieving is a deeply emotional process, by definition.....
It will encompass many different stages in the weeks and months to come....
Men often put a premium on being emotionally stoic...but that is just a social construct that should be done away with, in my opinion....
I suggest a grief support group in addition to seeing your counselor....
Human face to face contact is so vital....
think about it, this way...what could it hurt?
What plans, if any, have you made to keep in contact with her daughter?