i drank the bottom of the barrel garbage beer. or whatever garbage wine or liquor or my own home fermented cider. whatever was cheapest basicly. My standards had totally gone out the window. I was drinking stuff 10 years prior i woulda scoffed at and never drank. But since my consumption level was so extreme by this point it was the only way i could get the most booze for my dollar so i drank the trash. it was the same with smokes too.
Again I woulda drank pee if it had booze in it and i woulda smoked a turd if it had nicotine in it. I think I had no dignity or standards left in me.