Kimmy I totally understand how you feel and I think some of us went through (or are still going through) depressed mode. You're not alone in this
Thank you Kenton
families can be such a difficult topic and I envy those who have a really good and trouble free relationship to theirs. I just hope I won't mess it up with my own kids if I should ever have any. Knowing that I'm an alcoholic sometimes makes me think I probably shouldn't have children cause there's always the danger of relapsing. So I wonder if I could ever be a good mum. Don't know if that's pessimistic / too much worrying again or just rational.