Steely, sorry you're in a rough spot. That's what we're here for. The whole site is here if you need to get stuck to it for a bit. But if it feels unhealthy, you do you.
You have made me hungry. I am going to work, and I'm going to order some smoked sausage to eat with a pear and a mango. A big comfort food for me.
I have overdone it on sugar as well.