You are still very young. I wish I would have found this place at your age. It's perfectly normal for you feel the way you do. That's a ton of stuff to deal with. Reaching out here is awesome. So many caring experienced folks here. I hope you keep us all updated on your progress. Come here when feeling broken we will try to help. And when you see other posts you think you may be knowledgeable with offer your advice. That alone will boost your moral. We are all a lil' broken and that is why we are all here to help each other. you are in the right place.