Originally Posted by
Serendipitous 
I appreciate the advice. I haven't been to a doctor in over 5 years - such is my medical phobia!
I will talk to my daughter's father until I sort this out. He loves her just as much as I do.
Still so scared. I apparently shouldn't feel this way, but finding courage to see a doctor is so hard. I have never even suicidal in my life but can't bear the thought of someone giving me death news.
I just want to be there for my girl.
I do understand your fear. The news may not be as bad as you suspect though, Serendipitous, but only your doctor can make that determination. Try to think of your doctor as your partner in health; confide in him/her and be very honest.
Together you get on the road to better health.
I've read stories here of alcoholics turning some very bad health around by giving up the poison. Let your doctor help you get started. A medically supervised detox could be in order; let the healing begin, sweetheart.