Originally Posted by
FeelingGreat 
Why are you staying? Maybe it's fear of being alone, but you deserve a much better relationship than this. You are capable of staying sober to support her and you no doubt would thrive in a normal happy partnership.
If you do decide to move on, she will be bound to come after you with promises of good behaviour, but they won't last. Don't get sucked back in.
There is so much better waiting for you if you can make the break.
I do agree I deserve a much better relationship than this, it's just I want that better relationship with her. It feels so natural when I'm with her and there no hard feeling on either side but I'm finding it harder and harder to shake them hard feelings so trying to be close to her. It's just I haven't know anything else and I'm really shy and awkward around anyone even my family I just wish there was away to help her get her self motivated as she is in the mind but not physically