well done on another day sober.
By the sounds of it things got very serious by the end of your drinking.
The longer you stay sober the quieter that av will become and the more clarity you will have about how alcohol affected you.
Took me awhile to see the truth about my condition and how close I came to loosing everything including my life, whilst I was in it I thought it was normal to drink and behave the way did, that's how warped my sence of reality had become.
Keep putting them sober days together and don't look back you will not regret it i promise.
Peace