*HUGS*
What a beautiful end to a tragic story. Closure is now yours Sav, you can know that he loved you and if you have no contact then the last words you heard from him were loving.
Maybe now the healing can begin, I know it hurts sweetie but you are going to just have to heal, learn and come to a peace about all this. There is too much about you that is wonderful not to share with another. Give it a good cry, and let the healing begin.