Accountability
So I drank on Sunday. It's really unfortunate and was a very bad idea. I thought i'd take off one day to drink with my husband who had just gotten back home. Tbh it was a very conscious decision; there was no AV, nothing. I just chose to do it. Needless to say it ended in another disappointment and led my husband getting angry over something I did while blacked out. Well, i'm back to day one. While I feel disappointed in myself, i'm not letting myself get sucked into depression (which is hanging heavy over my head). I feel like a terrible person and an even worse mother. I know I can quit and stay quit. I know I can do it. It just starts now.