Hi Sasha,
I felt/feel that way about an ex who was at first verbally abusive, and then physically, which is why he became an ex. He lives 3000 miles away, and it has been 24 years since I have had any contact, but my feelings about him are still that strong.
If you are worried about the bullying behaviors I can see how it would cause such a strong emotion. I also think you are smart to avoid situations where he will be of it causes you to feel the way it does.
❤️Delilah