but it was touching how many people he touched when he wasn't drugged up.
This says it all. I think it's the reason why each life matters, it's why whether ill or well who we are matters and it's why you have happy memories as well as sad and why you feel him close.
I have an odd relationship with my brother but it's a strong one although we were seperated apart from holidays for most of our childhood. I see my hubby's relationship with his brother and my relationship with my old school friend and I find it hard to imagine the incredible bond there must be when siblings really grow up together. I watch it and think it's beautiful but I can't imagine how it feels.