Originally Posted by
ScottFromWI 
It does sound crazy, but then again addiction is crazy. To be honest I think you need to probably quit seeing him...so whether he wants to go out with you or not is kind of irrelevant. If you keep drinking bad things are going to happen to you, so you need to get away from people who promote it.
I agree, d-girl. It sounds like perhaps you have gotten "the gift of desperation?" When I finally had mine- after so, so SO many lows and losses and pain of every kind- I quit drinking.
I hope to see you here and I would also hope you seek outside help - AA can truly be the best start- free and it is available every day.
Good luck. it might seem absolutely impossible - crazy- to think that you can have a completely different and better life - but you can. Promise.