I was exactly where you are 2 weeks ago. Except I had missed 4 days of work over a 2 week period. Mainly because I'd get up all fired up to go to work then think what a great idea it would be to have a morning shot of whiskey or gin while getting ready. Well, after that 1 shot, my mind would start to tell me a totally different story; how I couldn't possibly drive to Work, better to stay and 'work from home' (read more drinking), to call in sick, etc. But on that fateful morning I was literally feeling so sick, dry heaving every 15 minutes, couldn't keep anything down and I decided to seek help. Pick yourself up, LLB, and get help.