Welcome LuLu. I'm so glad you are here, and you are not alone....we have all been in the same position, and truly understand how awful it feels. I was just there on Sunday/Monday. I missed work, the anxiety was more than I could handle, and I came here and started posting. Then I decided to finally tell my doctor that I was struggling, being honest and that helped. If you feel withdrawals or anything hurting you, please don't hesitate to seek medical help. And if you feel like taking a drink, post here first! Lots of support here. You can get thru this!