Thanks guys
I'm having a hard day. Courage your post pressed right on my hurt spots... today my ex went to get more of the rest of the stuff from the farm and I had wanted to go to.
He told me it had all been cleaned out. Readying for selling.
It's gone.
it really is. He said it wouldn't be a good place for me to go right now. The 12th would have been 5 years since we moved into the farm. My heart hurts.
And I think about the moving I did into my small little duplex now. I did everything by myself in my van and many trips and with my little one with me. All except for the couches and beds. It took me 4 months to get most of it.
Talk about ripping off the bandaid slowly.
Anyway. I had the thought today a few times of drinking tonight. I have a very trying toddler today who ran through my backyard Which is full of mushy dog crap barefoot and I had to chase her. That was the highlight of the worst. And my little angel isn't here. Haha I'm terrible.
Seems like a drinking day.
I thought I'd be a little more chipper about it. Only 4.5 more hours until I can just cry alone.
So grateful for you guys