Wallowing in self pity tired irratable i went to my sister house because my nieces and nephews always cheer me up. I said I'm hungry theres goolosh in the fridge. I open the fridge and there sits one beer I say to m niece who's beer is this she says her brother my nephew who's not old anuff to drink i grab it and dump it out my niece said I really thought you were gonna a drink that. All I had to do was get honest but how do get honest not just telling someone your fifth step but get hones with yourself and super honest with God just a garden variety schizophrenic alcoholic!!! I'll quit posting so much i just go bye what the bb says about God i just overdosed on religion I am powerless if I didn't get on my knees this morning i would of drank that beer!!!