Lady- if everybody was caught out by what our minds cook up- we would be back in the middle ages, when even thinking someone looks 'hot' was considered a form of adultery.
Thoughts do not hurt, actions do. Turn it around- your thoughts set off a defence 'warning' awareness in you. I think what is significant is you sharing those thoughts. NOT because you actually have a brain and so actually think- but what you doid with that thought. You were honest with yourself. In a lot of ways that is much, much more important than what we think. At lady at a meeting yesterday shared the same- except her finger was dislocated and later was going for treatment and had thoughts about the pain relief.
SO very well done. Just be careful with the ones you have and stuff is all good. Well thought out, well done and thanks for the share.