Admitting it to yourself is the big first step. As with everyone, you are your harshest critic and the one you lie to most.
"Beyond all others to thine own self be true"
Now is the time to come up with a game plan as to how you're going to address the problems. You can find a lot of resources and support on this site. I hope you decide to stick it out.
BTW, every time I make it to Philly I go to John's Roast Pork....delicious. You have some good eats in that town.