Originally Posted by
Joplusthree 
he wants back in, our children don't want him near us :-(
Hello, I am so sorry for what brings you here, and glad you have found some comfort in the other posts, you are not alone!
I come from the camp that when you have kids, they are #1. You put what is good for them first, and this is not good for them. They can see through it much more quickly than we can so many times. So through all you have said, the one sentence I pulled out of the quote is the one that matters. You must do what is the best for them.
I would recommend counseling with a counselor who specializes in addiction for yourself, and a counselor for your children as well.
Hugs to you. So sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here.