Welcome Megan! You are not alone and you'll find so many supportive people here. I've only been sober a short time and some days I find myself missing my evening glasses of wine. However, overall, I feel so much better. Night and day difference from even two weeks ago. I also drank to take the edge off my anxiety. I really felt I needed it in social situations. And I too did some really embarrassing things in front of my husband. But I made the decision to make a change and make my life better. You can too! I made a plan and try to keep busy in evenings which is my "wine time." I stay closely connected to SR, even if it's just reading through posts. My anxiety is so much better. I have a very stressful job and I'm coping better now than I ever did drinking. You've got this!