never feel stupid about what you write. And any man that doesnt respect you or your desicion isint a man at all and isint worth your time. you know yourself better than anyone and only you know if you have a problem. take some time to yourself and relax for a second and look at your options. look at your life and decide where you wanna be in a few years. that should at least help you make some decisions. just dont give up on yourself. i know you can do it! if i can do it so can you. imma post a thread about my story. read it..hopefully it will help.