Liz- but you are not giving up. Alfred said that cliché line in one of the b-man movies..'What do we do when we fall, Master Bruce? We pick ourselves up and keep on going' or something like that. The fact you have identified the cause, the feeling, what you need to do and what to do to de-stress. Awesomeness of proactive.
Stuff sucks, but as you have shown- what do we do?
Support to you. PJ