This is exactly why not taking that first sip is so important. It can turn into a week, month, year binge. After that first sip, the obsessiveness returns. At times I may crave a drink, but I run the tape through my head of where that will lead to - laying in my bed the next day stupefied why I have put myself in hell again, obsessing over my next drink, not knowing when the next blackout will be, weight gain and clothes not fitting, not sleeping well and sweating, suicidal thoughts because I just can't quit drinking again. When I lost my 10.5 months of sobriety last June and then could not stop drinking, I was so upset that I had the disease arrested and then did this to myself. I was so upset I would not have minded if God would have taken me in my sleep. This is why it is so important to stay away from the first sip/drink. It truly is a disastrous choice.