Great post!! It reminds me of the reading I've been doing about "Compliance vs. Surrender" & the difference in the mental processes:
Dr. Harry Tiebout explained the difference between alcoholic submission and surrender. He wrote:
"In submission, an individual accepts reality consciously, but not unconsciously. He accepts reality as a practical fact that he cannot at the moment conquer reality, but lurking in the unconscious is the feeling: ‘there'll come a day.’ True surrender, on the other hand, is acceptance on both a conscious and unconscious level, which allows us to put the conflict to rest and move on to other parts of our recovery. In fact, it allows us to forget the conflict and no longer be troubled by it."