Phoenix, yeah it's not that I'm ashamed per say, more that it just feels really personal right now..... I'm not ready to make any big announcements. I am firm in my plan to never drink again but it just doesn't feel right tell people, I don't know why but it just doesn't. Maybe because they've heard it all before only for me to return to drinking. I'd rather show people. I do feel like perhaps I owed my friend a proper explanation though.....