I know the feeling about being afraid of being locked up in a psych ward, I've never gone to the hospital for help with my drinking but I think they have an inpatient detox so I don't think they just lock you up. I hope you keep fighting for sobriety, I find this website extremely helpful! There's a topic on here somewhere about making a plan for sobriety today. It looks like people share their ideas and plans to stay sober for the day. I hope you can see a doctor!!