Hi Mera. I also think that Dee as usual has been very observant and wise.
Everything you need to stop drinking is within you. Trust yourself. Know that you are capable and wise already. Know that you can do this.
You are not being stupid, or crazy, or a baby, or ridiculous. You are just human.
It is normal for humans to have serious doubts about themselves. But it is also true that humans (all humans) are extremely capable and wise within themselves. If only we would believe it and trust and respect and love ourselves.
You are a creature of the universe, created to be here and with every right to be here. And like every creature of the universe, you do not have to be some other thing. You only have to be yourself. The flowers growing in your garden don't ask themselves what they have to be or do, they don't worry about being stupid or ridiculous or that others will be tired of them. You, Mera, also need not worry about how to be a better Mera or a stronger Mera, you can just trust that you are everything you need to be.