Hi and welcome VigilanceNow
if you feel unwell the safest thing is always to see a Dr.
I understand the fear but being involuntarily committed is pretty much Hollywood,, not reality.
Do seek help if you need it.
I also recommend you throw yourself into this community.
I didn't go to rehab but I understood the need for change, for commitment and for vigilance...I need to consciously maintain my recovery - it's not something I can 'fix' once and walk away from.
It will become second nature in time but for a while you really need to protect your recovery and your commitment to it.
being a regular here is a good start.
Any idea that a drink is in any way a good idea is a lie - and those moments are the times you need to reach out here and ask for help.
There's always someone around to help you through
I'm glad you found us
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