Originally Posted by Frankenskank1

I feel as though the subby is all that is between us because he only lies, makes excuses, wont look me in the eyes ect when he's on a high from it. When he is "normal/controlling it" He is such a gentle, funny, awesome person. I feel like he has two personalities 1 is my man who wants to look after me and makes sure I'm happy and appreciates all I do and how much i make him happy and the 2nd one has pin-point pupils and constantly talks too fast, has random outbursts of yelling and scratches at his red skin, whistles and sings rude songs about what he wants to do to me (no point he goes soft) and drives dangerously. He constantly looks like he needs sleep. I'd love to just know how to separate the two. Anyone else recognize this is other subby users???

Excuse the insult but, is there an ex-junkie out there who could tell me from their point of view what they would want their sober partner to do in this situation. Walking away from unresolved things/people leaves me even more hurt for not trying harder.
Dont get me wrong either I am a level headed, whole hearted person but am I a hypocrite? I'm no saint because I smoke p*t but at least my drug makes me laugh and giggle and eat a bit more than usual and do more stuff in sex than i usually would...