Thank you both. It feels good to be welcomed back.
I am working on surrendering myself to God everyday. I just did so (or tried at least) this morning. After saying the 3rd step prayer a few times I felt my HP "kicking in" so to speak.
It told me that I should be grateful for my house - a roof over my head. To be grateful for this new day, the weather and the trees.
Basicly I think my HP wants me to be grateful today. So I am going to do that as much as I humanly can.
Still working on my shame to telling other people what works for me (if they ask) but 1 thing at a time and 1 day at a time.
Love ya all!