Here we go
So I'm new to this. I am relatively new to sobriety. I didn't drink till after college (I know a bit backwards). I drank to black out just as my father did. I became sober last year and had a full year under my belt. Then on my honeymoon I literally picked my new brides drink up (mistake or not it happened) took that sip and instead of spitting it out like I should have once I realized, I allowed it to reinvade my entire existence. That was 204 days ago. Since then I've had only around 40 days without a drink.
All I want to do is get a bottle tonight (again) and drink.
I don't know if this is the right utilization for this particular forum. Just sharing for help I guess.
Thanks for your time.