you are a danger to yourself. within three days of hospitalization after collapsing DUE to DRINKING, being informed you now have additional physical impairments DUE to DRINKING, you went and bought alcohol.
that is insanity.
there is help for this. and if ever anyone was in dire need of all the help possible, i'd say you are a very good candidate. simply put, you are going to kill yourself with the drink.
please get help.