Originally Posted by
Pajanickah 
I wanna make this clear - I'm in absolute no way suicidal. I just don't want to live anymore.
I'm in EXTREME withdrawal right now so I'm sipping on some wine.
My problem is I'm not eating properly. I want to make it clear that I do not take Benzos while intoxicated.
I've been here before. I know how it works. Don't get me wrong, I want to live - however death seems more enticing.
Tomorrow I start again to find a job.
You say you've been "here" before and know how it works - but if that's true then you know you're not going to be in the right condition to go job hunting tomorrow. Not if you're drinking wine now to help you endure EXTREME withdrawal.
And to be clear - not eating properly is not the problem right now. Not the immediate problem.
I want to support you, but it looks like you need direct support getting medical attention. Do you have anyone in your life - someone sober - who knows your current situation?