Hello,
I am glad you are here and posting, that tells me you do care. I was going to suggest the Salvation Army as well for rehab, however right now sounds like a call to 911 is how you start. If you are feeling that you want to die they can help you with the mental/emotional side of that as well as the physical withdrawals, from there have them recommend a rehab, or head to the Salvation Army.
You can figure out your next steps from there. For now make that call to 911, focus on how you are feeling right now. Please check in and let us know you have called.
❤Delilah