Getting off the train is the hardest step. I had to do it. I didn't know what was going to happen but I had to take the risk. I couldn't keep going. Don't drink today. That is all you need to tell yourself. Thinking ahead always brought me anxiety. I do go to AA meetings to be reminded exactly why I am putting it down and there are people there waiting to help. You can do it. There are so many people staying sober each day. Take care of yourself today and just know it WILL get better if you stay sober.