Welcome Back Nick.
If I lived Amsterdam, I'd come and slap you in the head!! (I've been known to do that to the people who I care about that relapse).
Don't be ashamed. The shame is in not coming back and being honest. Take a look at the patterns leading up to your relapse, (including your reluctance to be honest about your HP) and change those things.
We'll still be here for you.
Love ya,
Laurie