Early in recovery it was overwhelming for me to even try to make a decision, any decision. What if I made a mistake? What if nobody likes me if I do that? What if I can't accomplish what I set out to do? What if....?
I learned that I could make little decisions and feel good about it. I tended to isolate and stay in the house a lot so I made the decision to walk two blocks to the downtown of the little town we lived in at the time, and to visit two shops and talk to someone about something....even if it was just "nice day, isn't it?"
That alone was scary the first time, less so the second, and before you know it I had made acquaintances, even friendships, with some of the shop keepers in town.
I couldn't make the big decision about recovery so I made the little decision to go to just one meeting...maybe even two...and that was the beginning of bigger decisions to change my life.
We are each capable of making little decisions. The decision to spend an hour in nature every day, or to read for half an hour something that would inspire us...a nice poem or short reading...like this one.
The small decisions are "doable" for almost any one of us. Don't worry if they will lead to bigger decisions later. Just for today make a little decision to do something that will make you feel better...even if you don't feel like it...ESPECIALLY if you don't feel like it.
And throw the "what if's" to the universe and instead say "Why Not?"
Hugs