I'm new to this forum too, although not new to alcoholism and attempting sobriety.
Over 30 years I've 'stopped' multiple times, but could never make it stick. Couple of months, couple of years once, but one drink and it starts all over.
I also tried AA, but it just didn't work for me, traveling extensively for work didn't help, but the whole AA thing just never seemed to take hold in my head.
I've found reading this forum and other peoples experiences much more therapeutic.
So maybe this time, for both of us, we're finished for good