Hi,it's been a month sober yew.
I've made going to AA kinda a religious thing as I've been attending every Wednesday night. They help me a lot especially because I can tell them my story and can be totally honest without them passing judgement.
The anxiety has almost gone now and I have started dating again, it feels great to be able to talk to the opposite sex without relying on the confidence of alcohol.
I went on a road trip by myself last weekend but had to come home early as I started thinking about buying alcohol and locking myself in a hotel room for the night.
So the thoughts are still there but now I realize that they come on like a wave and those thoughts do pass.
I really hope I don't relapse as I am enjoying sobriety a lot and thank you guy's for showing me the way .