doesn't matter.
heck, I don't know if I'm "an alcoholic". What even IS that? I mean, I say it a lot. Sometimes I truly mean it. Other times it's more a ritual and a pledge while identifying with what the term means TO ME.
but the bottom line is you can't scientifically and definitively take a test that tags you yes or no.... (yet). so until that time I say - WHO CARES if you're 'an alcoholic' or not.
Has alcohol caused you problems? Does it interfere with the richness and presence and fullness of your life? Does alcohol take control of you in ways you wish it wouldn't? Have you tried putting it down and found that difficult or darn near impossible? Would you like more out of your life than alcohol offers?
Then what's important isn't "alcoholism" - it's SOBRIETY.
When people question my 'alcoholism' - I sometimes just say "you're right.... I'm not an alcoholic. I'm a person who chooses to life in sobriety".
Keep at it.
