Welcome Sewloca.
I know how you feel - I was the same at 5 days when I first tried to quit. I had a few false starts because I just didn't see how it would be possible to give up my whole way of life. Yet bad things kept happening. I got a DUI. I started to take alcohol to work with me. I was putting myself in dangerous situations. It just wasn't worth it anymore. Give yourself chance to get past the early discomfort & depression - it will lift as you get some sober time. I drank 30 yrs. & now have over 9 yrs. sober. Being here at SR works. Glad to have you with us.