Welcome to SR, Sewloca!
I needed help and support--just "not drinking" didn't work for me--sooner or later I'd give in and go back to drinking just for relief from how I was feeling. I needed something to show me how to be sober and happy about it too.
I had to make a complete lifestyle change and I also had to be prepared that it was going to be tough at first with the cravings and I was going to feel pretty bad until I got on my feet with sobriety.
With a program of action, those cravings didn't last forever and eased off over time. I started feeling better and life began to actually get good again.
Now I feel like I've been released from that prison I was in and I'm no longer a slave to drinking.
This place can help you find the support you need and show you the different ways people are getting and staying sober so you can make a plan for yourself that works.