Hi Kyng and congrats on 50 days, fantastic! I can relate to a lot of your insights in your post.
Thats a tough one re. your Sponsor and don't feel bad bringing it up. The whole point (as I understand it) of a Sponsor is to take you through the steps and be a support especially in those early days. I guess we have to remind ourselves that they are human too and suffer from many of the same things as us.
Having said that, your ongoing recovery has to be YOUR priority. If you think he is not in a space to be able to provide support for you then you can gently let him know you need to find another Sponsor. I know of some who have more than one Sponsor. Not having him as a Sponsor does not mean you can no longer support each other, all you can do is handle the situation with compassion and honesty.
If you have embraced the program and a higher power....now might be a good time to ask for guidance
I find if I try not to force things (self will) answers unfold before me.
Lets us know how you go.