musiclady....you are doing all the right things, it seems....and, that is really good, because, it will pay off, for you, in the long run.
But, do not forget that you are in mourning...and it is a very emotional time....exquisetly painful...and, it will last for weeks to months, in fits and spurts....as it gradually lessens and you are healing....
I call this the short-term pain for the long term gain.....
There is just no way around it...but, it won't always feel like this....